8 more days ’til she comes home.Ü
…neko is back and she needs to be good to her commitments. only a few months til the asthmatic kitten comes back home.
a lot of unfurled yarn to rewound.
(01:13:19) nene: ow..hehe! safe pa naman ang jerusalem sbi ni yehuda although my mga nagtra-try pumasok na suicide bomber..kaya mahigpit ang security..
(01:13:58) neko: KAMUSTA NAMAN YUN!!!!!
(01:19:29) nene: hehe
(01:19:58) neko: bat pati jerusalem? eh di ba neutral kayo?!!
(01:22:09) nene: ndi, hati ang Jerusalem… the West belongs to the palentinian Arabs while the East belongs to the Jews.. and gusto ng mga Arabs sakupin lahat pero ayaw syempre ng mga Jews..
(01:22:45) neko: eh dapat hindi gnun
(01:22:49) neko: waaaaaaaaaaah
(01:22:53) neko: umuwi ka na!!! bilis
(01:22:55) neko: gabi na!!!
(01:23:00) neko: anubear?!!!!
(01:23:05) neko: go go og
(01:23:06) neko: *go
(01:24:02) neko: do not compromise your safety!
(01:24:42) nene: safe nmn dito noh.. nasa ends of the earth kme..hehe
(01:25:23) neko: no one is safe-safe. 
war is expensive and capricious! think: 9/11. did anybody expect that? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(01:29:04) neko: GAZA CITY, Gaza Strip – Israel obliterated symbols of Hamas power on the third day of what the defense minister described Monday as a “war to the bitter end,” striking next to the Hamas premier’s home, and devastating a security compound and a university building.
(01:31:47) nene: owkie, uwi nko.. gutom na din ako..hehe!
(01:31:51) neko: sagot ng white house: “We are encouraging all the nations in the region to take an active part in rebuilding the ceasefire so that we can return to the relative calm that was enjoyed in the region over the past six months,” he told reporters. “We are working for a cease-fire now where Hamas must stop its rocket attacks on Israel. All sides then need to respect the ceasefire.”
(01:31:54) neko: uwi na!!!
(01:32:04) neko: magtext ka pag bahay ka na.
(01:32:09) neko: ingat nene okay?
(01:32:11) neko: i love you
(01:32:24) neko: bring your passport and money with you EVERYWHERE!!!!
(01:32:34) nene: owkie..log out knb?
(01:32:34) neko: everywhere. you hear me????!!!
(01:32:37) neko: i love you
(01:32:44) neko: nope – i might wait for you to come home
(01:32:46) neko: ping me
(01:32:52) neko: then i’ll sleep na
(01:32:54) nene: owkie
(01:32:59) nene: loveyou
(01:33:00) nene: bye
(01:33:03) neko: love you!!
see? huhuhu. please keep her safe…
there’s a war in gaza – okay, war is the norm there. but it seemed a zillion miles away (before) for me to really take an active stance thus sympathies would have to suffice. fast track to today: heller, andun yung kapatid ko! ano ako hilo?!!! everything’s so personal now for me, i mean, everything gaza, palestine, israel. the whole conflict! and if i weren’t nervous enought, define staging an airstrike. AN AIRSTIKE! i.am.gonna.faint.
hay nene, all my 25 years – o sige, at least all the years in my sad, little, life when i realized i love you to pluto and back and that i will give anything and everything just to keep you safe, i TRIED to cover you… even to the point of me meddling. i did with good intentions.
grrr… i’m just worried. yes, you told me that you’re relatively far from gaza. even yehuda, through his letter, mentioned that they are prepared and that there is no need to worry – but try telling that to a heart that knows nothing but to protect. haha. isama mo pa si mama sa akin…
i can still remember how you smiled last night when i told you to bring all your money and your important docs with you everywhere you go. sabi mo paranoid talaga ako. ganun din yun sinabi mo nung nag wee-wee break ka at iniwan mo ang laptop mo sa student center habang asa kabilang linya ako ng webcam na talaga namang eagle-eyed sa pagmamatyag kung may kukuha… di ba tumawa ka kasi sabi mo walang nangingialam ng gamit diyan dahil akala nila bomb?!! guess what? – sabi ni mama, tama ako. HAHAHA! kaya nene, dalhin mo ang passport at pera mo lagi.
and come home safe. text me always.
i am too young to die thinking about you. 
labshu!
… pasko na! at walang pasok sa January 2. 
she’d send me e-mails with panda-versions of us and i’d go over the moon because of joy. they’re virtual visits sent to my inbox, received by my heart. because she was busy with school and extra curriculars as i was busy too – coping… missing her – we both had to find a way to bridge the geographical gap.
aren't we cute? haha
then came reality creeping from behind and the blog was forgotten – this blog. the “sister void” in my heart was temporarily patched with work and work… i still waited for her at night and sent offline messages, texted her with well wishes. but chronos – darn you – was too selfish to give me a few of my sister’s time. it’s either we talk and catch up, or i end up tired and sluggish. it’s not something selfish i think, but i came to understand even more that long-distance relationships even at a level so intimate as that which my sister and i share have to be weighed against something. real life relationships and career are really mutually exclusive. they are never to blend, like oil and water. work-life balance is a myth.
- the price of reality. sigh.
but we managed to get wind of each other. thank you facebook. you won over 6 years of self-imposed hermitage and became the next best “institutional” channel of keeping up with each one’s busy life.
the chagall place: maf, nene and yaz
so, her activities, let’s see: nene was able to visit the famous chagall windows, she also participated in the jewish version of arbor day – planting trees in mount eitan she did. have i told you about yad vashem? tears momentarily misted her eyes as she looked at remnants of the holocaust.
then there’s school and all her researches, all spent alone in the student center. i need not tell you guys of course that i so wanted to just be there with her enjoying a book beside her while she tapped, deleted and sighed in front of her laptop just like what we usually did when she was still here.
good times.
nene was here!!!
in a hour, it’ll be officially christmas. my first away from nene. since yesterday, a big lump of emotion has been clogging my throat because i miss her – to pluto and back much… on the morning of her flight, i mentioned to her that she has to go not only to help her grow as a person – to diversify and hone her skills so that she can fulfill God’s mission for her in this generation – but to also teach us, those who were left “temporarily”, what it is still has to clear – maybe in a few months, it’ll come to me, at least, i what other lessons i should be learning from this experience (like maybe having my own life, letting others in too, carving my own niche…) however, for now – especially today, all i know is that i thank Him who made us family so much because i appreciate my sister so much more than i did. that family is forever, and as my stubborn memory would remind me “mama is mama” per papa. story to be told in a separate blog. ^_^
but nene, amidst all these things that i say – i really feel somber without you here. no one to cook mashed potato with, no one else but you knows what i mean by a “large medipack”, and more than that i miss you period.
there is a growing, gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach which no amount of tender juicy hotdogs can cover.
christmas is blue without you kiddo. hurry home. i’m gonna throw a big party for you!
i love you and merry christmas!
love – ate.
p.s. peter, paul and mary made me cry. hahah. and the old folks send you their love. magtext ka naman daw.
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- aren’t we cute? haha
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- the chagall place: maf, nene and yaz
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- nene was here!!!
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- gellato!
yes.
fully? not quite.
it’s been quite a while since my last post – don’t worry, the loooooooooooong vacation will find me chained to nene’s old lappy updating this blog.
soon, little grasshopper. neko will tell you stories of nene again.
mwah!
*sharam dana, sharam dana (2x) oooooh oh….* – intro, kapag tumibok ang puso by donna cruz
isa siyang russian na lahat na yata ng course na related sa public heath/epidemiology ay kinuha. hahah. natawa kami ni nene nung una naming nakita ang kanyang profile. kasi nakakatuwa, lahat yun natapos nya sa edad na 23.
at ewan ko ba ke nene, crass daw nya (”yaya, sean phillip called?”). so, itong kapatid kong nakamana ng 1/10 ng aking pagka-stalker ay nangunguha ng stolen pictures ng – sa kabutinhang palad? – likod at shoes ni crass nya. hahahah. nakakatuwa naman.
umalis kasi si nene na may “ewang status” ang relationship na ang alam ko na dinedeny wala na. hindi na lang ako mag-co-comment dahil sinabi ko sa kanyang inirerespeto ko ang kanyang desisyon at privacy. as i’ve been telling her (and myself) for the nth time: she is her own individual and she is old enough to know that she is responsible for her actions, choices, et.al.
… still, i want her to know that the world she lives in just grew bigger and maybe, this time, she’ll find (not a replacement) but someone who’s for her. a person that will help her grow more intellectually, socially, spiritually, ad libitum.
ano bang hitsura ni crush? tingnan sa baba kasama ng mga piling excerpts ng aming chat transcripts:
November 4, 2008, 11pm: OMZ! Dumaan siya sa apartment!
Nene says: andito kagabi..
Nene says: dinalaw
Nene says: ak..
Nene says: si
Nene says: norah!
Nene says: haha
Nene says: joke..
Nene says: wala ka kasi siya laptop pa..
Nene says: so nkigamit siya
Nene says: kay norah..
Neko says: Bat di mo pinahiram?
Nene says: di nman kame close
Nene says: nohQ
Nene says: nagulat
Nene says: nga ko..]
Nene says: kasi diba pinaguusapan
Nene says: pa natin siya..
Nene says: hahaah
November 8, 2008, 9pm: OMZ! kasama ko siya sa church!
Nene says: tpos medyo npahaba pa yung preching kaya nainip ata..
Nene says: hahaha
Nene sent file “IMG_1103.JPG” to members of this chat
Nene sent file “IMG_1104.JPG” to members of this chat
Nene sent file “IMG_1082.JPG” to members of this chat
Nene sent file “IMG_1083.JPG” to members of this chat
Nene sent file “IMG_0260.JPG” to members of this chat
Nene says: His shoes..
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- stolen shot of the one who stole her heart
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- lagi kasing tumatabi sa kanya. hahah.
Nene (via voice chat):
“nagcocollect sha ng coins tapos nag kwentuhan kami nung lunch tungkol sa currency… binigay ko na sa kanya yung Php 5 ko”
“sabi nya kung pwedeng sa kanya na yung Php 1000 pesos ko. Rich girl daw ako.”
… may kwento pa nga si nene na nahuli nito itong si crass na nakatingin sa kanya at lagi siyang nilalapitan. yihee. kaso sabi nya 3 o 4 days na atang suot ni crush ang sweatshirt nitong puti. hahah. alang palitan. bigyan na lang nya sa pasko no? nyahahah.
nakatikim din naman ako ng paglayo sa aking “bahay”. nyahahah! in college, i was shipped off - and eventually fell in love – with the quaint town of los baños, laguna. oo nag-aral ako sa paanan ng makiling kung saan akala ng mga tao walang ibang tinda kundi buko pie na “original”.
- at walang kagatol-gatol kong sasabihing it was the best X years of my life. hahaha. (i got extended, buti wala na noong mrr sa up.)
to live alone and independently can either make you or break you. it is also a good test of your measure as a person not to mention your budgeting skills. seriously, the initial “shock” fades away and out of it comes a zillion stories and lessons that you will fondly look back at.
i am definitely sure that this 1 year away will be one of the best if not the bestest year that nene will have in her life. aba! scholar ka na nakapagtrip ka pa!Ü tunay na kakaiba at nakakatakot sa una pero sa dulo – kering keri na.
at dahil napapagusapan din lang, eto ang mga pictures niya:
where nene lives and her housemates
ABOVE PIC SHOWS: nene with her housemates [yazmin = latin american; norah, m.d. (with red streaks) = kenyan; mieraf, m.d. (braids) = ethiopian], her apartment door and pathway towards it. the view from her veranda at night and in the morning plus her new room.
first dinner with prof.eppstein
… eto namang asa taas nito ay ang kanilang first dinner in one of their prof’s house. apparently, it has become a tradition that IMPH students spend their shabbath dinners in one of their prof’s house. lilibutin nila ang bahay ng faculty hanggang matapos ang taon.
ayan, yan ang mga kasama nya dun. talk about learning to the highest degree -at shempre, mas nanapag palawak ng perspektibo sa buhay.
naiingit ka na ba? ako, oo. nyahahah.
neko: G
neko: O
neko: O
neko: D
neko: Evening!!!
neko:
BUZZ!!!
neko: kadadating ko lang. musta? =)
nene: naglalaba ko..
nene: busy..
neko: ah… hokey.
neko: shigi, shigi. maglaba ka muna
neko: mga 1:30 naman ako matutulog
neko: mwah!
neko: just wanted to let you know i’m online
nene’s status is now “Idle”. (11/12/2008 12:35 AM)
